i cant believe i spent several hours replying to all the fb wishes until my eyes were so tired last night +.+ i think something weird about me is that i love checking mails and totally cant stand it when i have 354 emails unread! all spammed by fb -.- maybe its the mac mail thing; when there's an unread email, there's a red thing on the mail logo shouting at you to read it! hahahahaha.

i just stepped into the tweenteens world and my wisdom tooth is growing! pretty uncomfortable :| Anyways, i truly thank God for watching and guiding me for these 20 years of my life! From how we were in Malaysia, leaving my dad, starting anew in Singapore, mum taking up the super mum role of being our mother, sole breadwinner of the family, our teacher, our cook, our cleaner :p etc and how He brought us back to His side to Joy Fellowship church and to Shalom BP church, I CANT STOP PRAISING HIM! ♥

Indeed God has been really gracious and faithful! Even through these past few months, He never failed to pick me up in times when i was lost and faithless. There were so many times when He guided me back to Himself and told me "Do not worry, I AM YOUR GOD & i will never forsake you." God indeed you are so great and sovereign above all. Thank you for blessing me with such wonderful friends like ruth & tim that allowed me to keep my focus back to you :) Though this past few months was filled with tearful prayers and struggles, i thank You for putting me through them. It is through this that i know more about Your character and how You have been moulding me through these situations. Recently, I discovered more about myself when facing new situations. It feels kinda weird and it just serves as a good reminder that there's so much more to learn about God to be Christlike :) 

im really extremely sorry for the times when i was selfish, when i was afraid and not trusting God enough. Sorry for the times when i wanted to choose the easy way out but realises that my decision does not affect only me but the people ard me as well. Sorry for not being able to vocalise my thoughts, but i dont know why it has been really hard. Thank you for being so patient and understanding. Thank you for trusting in God! Thank you for teaching and reminding me about God along the way! To God be the glory!

To sum up the past 20 years of how good God has been, here is a song to express my heartfelt words.