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I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. I don’t seem to be myself... many times I had many thoughts as usual & it’s me that I participate in conversations. However now all I do is to keep mum and just listen. Is it a good thing or bad thing? I don’t know why but I just don’t feel like talking or giving comments. Sometimes when I do share my chain of thoughts, I will just be very direct and not phrase my words as nice as before. Is it the friends that I mix with that cause me to be who I am or am i just being pure lazy or am i changing? I feel that I don’t really like to mix in big groups anymore. Now I only like to have conversations to a person or two. Whyyyyyyy? I don’t know why I don’t seem to be connected with my network of friends that much. I don’t seem to be as concern for them as before. I don’t know why, but I don’t feel like talking. I’m serious & this is happening for weeks/months already. The only person that I talk the most to is only God. This may sound weird to you but I grew to feel most comfortable with God. I became a very task-oriented person. I arrive, want things to be done, do the things im suppose to do and im out of there. I’m normally the chillax person who likes to hang around, catch up & do nothing/nonsense with friends. But now, I guess everything that has no agenda is a waste of time to me. Sad to hear this? I am sad to even realize the change in me. I become a person who don’t know what to talk about with friends and waits for someone to initiate the conversation first. I become a more emotionless person. Is it a good thing or bad thing? In the past, I always wish I could be less emotional and now when I am less emotional, it feels weird. I am feeling sian about many things but I just don’t know why. The yog break started for a week already but I don’t really feel that it’s a break. I really want to do something that I really like & truly truly truly truly enjoy myself in it. im sorry but I don’t feel like talking to you anymore. Maybe avoiding is the only way out. But I really hope I have nothing to do with you. Im sure my God will help me in this :)