Meshell.
Design. Ultimate.
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how much do you want it?
Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 10:33 PM
I REALLY WANT IT A LOT TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXX! thoughts of giving up were in my mind but after talking to many ppl, i feel that i cant bear to give it up & it serves as a greater platfoam in my purpose :D press on michelleeeee! its never enough :) joel, my ultimate frisbee captain says this for those who misses trg:
For the next 3 weeks - Everyone is not allowed to watch TV. Not allowed to eat for more than 30mins. You don't go out visiting don't go spending time with your family. You can't take a long shower. I don't want to see any of you joining groups on facebook, don't comment don't go online. When you are travelling home revise, don't chit chat with your friends. Don't go out to watch movies, don't meet your sweethearts don't sleep for more hours than your body needs.because you all need to study.If you don't do all that you can make it down for all trainings even if there are exams. Don't relax, you can't ...afford to relax because once your brain relaxes, it needs time to start up again.
then i realise im almost doing everything above & i still cant make it for trg! >.< i dont watch tv since i enter poly, i seldom eat more than 30min, visiting & spending time w family is must la [but i seldom tooo due to work work work], i dont take long showers, i dont join facebook groups & ive not been online/fb for a week! *hoorays for me* i dont go watch movies [but i really wanna watch though, super deprive of it :( ] no sweethearts, only sweets :D hahhahas. i seldom spend time with my friends alr la :((( i sleep 4-6h regularly.. sigh, im gonna do work faster from now on cause I REALLY WANNA TRAIN, 27TH MARCH! :D i dislike designer's life leh, so sad/ no life. no cny shopping, no valentines celebration w friends, seldom get to catch up w people whom i love, little talking [which i really love to]....etc. and i wasted $20+ on my materials this week! im really bothered about it. i know that ive been really busy but i also dont want it to be like that. i know its my fault in not investing more time but i dont wish things will take a step back. i will try my best in this, but i feel that im really short of time. everything requires time & i must admit that i've almost cut all my socializing time because of thisss. sorry, i will try to get back my life & i wish to be who i am in the past. with the amount of stress/work & with God's strength, i will pull through :) dont give up <3 |